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Tuesday, November 29, 2005 || 12:24:00 PM
uPdaTE:
suMone pLS teLL mE whY pEople lYk tO kEep e sEeminGly uSefuL bUt rArelY uSed toOls lYk bRicks, woOden pLAnks, oLD uMbreLLAs anD ruSty pAint coVEred sCrew dRivers...duN thEy oNLi seRve tO mEsS uP e pLAce whIle wAitinG foR suMone tO fiNAllI uSe iT aFter doNkey nUmBer oF yEars?...
sO, i dEcideD tO cAre nOt anD thRow aWay e whOle raCk oF oLD shOEs chArcoaL cRates anD waTEva i cAnt reCogniZe oN iT aWay...wIthoUt e pErmiSsioN oF mY mUmmY deArest...anD guEsS waT i aM deFinatEly nOt goNna stoP tHEre...bY cNy i iNteND tO thRow aWay e clOtheS haNger, anD twO oTher bASketS fuLL oF wEird tOols i hAf nV sEen aNyoNE toUch...
uNleSs mUmmY mOvEs thEm iNto hEr rOom...wATevA iS oUt iS uNDer mY coNtroL...e oNE whO doEs e clEaniNg haF e sAY...nOt e oNE whO paYS foR nEw stuFf...oH i foRgot...iT's gOOdbYe tO t610 aNd hEllo tO VS3...---------------------------------------------------yAyy! mY nExt oFf daY iS wAkebOArdinG dAy!!!!...i cAN dO iT, enDure eNdure...3 mORe dAYs...whEn r wE goIng foR buFfet maNZ pEeps...bY e wAy, i aM reAlliE aMazEd bY mY sErviCe aTtituDe aT woRk, deSpite e reAL perSon i aM...3 chEers...
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Sunday, November 27, 2005 || 4:38:00 PM
iT's oKi...i cAn gEt mY oWn bRaceS...iT shAll bE mY chRistmaS giFt tO mYselF, beArinG iN mInd i aM maKing uP foR e pAst 21 yEars...yAyy!bUt beFOre mY bRacEs, i wAnna gO sinG kTv, eAt sAkurA aND kFc...anYonE iNteresTed?...anD mY deAresT mS lEong, cAN u hUrrY bAck fRm mElbouRne?...
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Friday, November 25, 2005 || 5:01:00 PM
e grEen eyEd mOnstEr haS gOttEn iTsElf iNtO mE...nAHz, stoP uR spEediNg iMaginAtioN...i mErelY goT grEen coNtacTs oN...hMmm, i lYk e greEn iN mY eyEs...beSt pArt? mY viSion doEsnt bLur oFf whEn i lOok tO e sIDe, uNlikE mY pRevioUS eXperienCes...wEll, oTHer tHAn bEing hAppiE...tAt coUld oNli mEan mOre mOney oUttA mY pOCket...bUt i jUZ cAN't reSisT e grEen anD i aM yEarniNG tO trY e viOlet...anYmoRe coLourS i aM goNNa cElebraTE mY bUrfdaE iN aBsoluTe pOvertY...tiS yEar, i aM nO lOnger aS eXciteD aBt mY bUrfdAe...i aM aSToniShed mYselF...mayBE iT iS e woRk...aNywaY, u kNow waT thEy sAY abT uR buRfdAe iS oNE oF e wOrst dAYs foR uR mUm...anD siNCe i aM e eLDesT, i aSsumE nO sAle oF aNy eLDer siBlinGs hEre, mY bUrfdAe mUz bE e wORst dAY iN mY mUM's lIFE...aT e thOught oF tAt, i wEnt tO mY mUmmY's rOOm tO dEmanD a hUg...i duNNo hOW eLSe tO iNitiaTe a hUg fRm mY folKs bUt i reCkoN tiS mEthoD woRks pRettY weLL wiF mY mUm siNCe shE iS beAminG nOw...nOt foRgettiNg hEr meNtionIng mY aRms anD tuMMy aRe biGger tHAn hErs...i duN tinK sO, nOt e tuMMy aT leAst...bUt oNE shAN'T stArt aN aRguemenT wiF a cRankY mEnopAusiNg woMaN tAt u jUZ maDe hAppiE...i meAn, i nOe mY oWn bOdy anD wAt mUmMy wAnna sAY iS fiNE wiF mE iF iT maKes hEr haPPie...i reMembEr teLLiNg hUimiN aBt tiS...suMtimEs i feEl mUmmIEs nV lYk tO aDmiT tHEir dAughterS lOOk bEta tHAn tHem sO tHey pUt thEir dAughterS doWn fRm tiMe tO timE...doEs uR mUmMy dO tAt?...mIne doEs bUt i bElieVE iT iSn't iNtentioNal...sEe...i tiNk hUGs cUre mEnopAuSe, woRks mUCh bEta thAn eVeniNg pRimrOSe oIl aT leASt...hEre aRe e pHotoS...
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gReeN eyEs
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mAjor!
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bRanDy, stAr oF chIldreN's woRld
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Thursday, November 24, 2005 || 2:58:00 PM
i wEnt tO e zOO toDay wiF mY dAddY anD lIttlEst siS...iT diN sEem aS bIg aS i remEmbereD iT...mAybe mY stEps wEre sMallEr thEn...wEnt aRd aPproX twO fuLL roUNds aND saW aLL thAt cAN bE sEen, cEpt thE snAke trAIl...pLS foRgivE mY laCk oF guTS, e wArniNg oUtsiDe reAD 'pLS dO nOt pIck uP e snAKes, thEy maY bIte'...juZ lYk hOW i miSs mY sEc sCh dAYs, i woNDer iF mY dAddY mISs uS bEIng liTTle aNd dePendenT?...iT sEems lYk hE doEs, foR aLL daY hE wAS goIng 'sEe gaL tiS iS e lIon, thE jAGuaR, e pOlaR beAr swiMminG yAddA yaDda blAh blaH'...anD i woNDer tOO iF e lIOn i sAw toDay wAs e oNE i sAw maNy yEars aGo whEn i wAS stiLL a lIttlE uGlY gAl...nOt taT i hAf gRown aNy diFf thOugh...wEll aT leASt i grEw iNtellEctuaLLy foR toDay...dO u kNow tHAt1) mAle lIOns wiPe oFf aLL cuBs lEft beHind bY pRevioUS mALes aFter tHEy tAKe oVEr?2)whIte tiGers aRen't aLbiNos, thEy haF blUe eYEs wHich chAnges tO aMber whEn theY grOW uP.anD e eMceE foR e eLEpHAnt shOW anD shEepdoG pErformAnce wAS tiS saME bUtch tAt dAddY sAy lOok lYk jOSh...hAhA...osO, toDay i wEnt tO e chIldreN's woRld tO coMpensAte foR mE miSsing iT whEn i wAS liTtle...duN aSk mE hoW i dO iT, bUt i reMembEr e diSappOintmenT whEn i reAch tHEre anD toUCh oNE raBbit bEfore e zOO-kEeper toLD uS iT's clOSing tiME anD wE cOuldn't pLAy wiF e sMAll aNimaLS nO moRe...nOW tAT i haF smAll aNimaLS oF mY oWn, iT wAS lEss mEaninGfuL nOR aS fUn alBiet mY detErminAtioN tO fuLfil mY oWN chIldhOOd reGret...aNywaY wE pRoceEd tO cArteL aT eAStsiDe aFterwaRds anD daDdy aSked iF i wAS tAt tiRed siNce i waS snOrinG lYk e pIG i aM iN e tAxi..wE stUfFed oURselVEs wiF riBs, sEafooD mAcaroNi, chICken bOl aNd oF coUrse chEf sALad, lUckilY wE gAVe e deSserT a mISs iF nOt i wiLL bE dRaggiNg mY tuMMy aLL e wAY baCk...i dOn't kNow aBt chIneSe anD tHEir oBsEssiOn wIf hAfinG eXceSsive aMt oF fOOd oN e tAble, bUt mY fatHEr giVes mE e beST anD aBSoluTelY anIthinG i wAnt aT hIS treAT...hE muZ bE e bEst gUy hUman iN mY lIFe...anD lYk oWaez, i enJoyed mY dEbatE wiF deAresT dAddY...tOdaY's toPic wAS 'hUmaNS aRe suPErioR tO thEir aNimaL cOunterpArts'...guEsS whiCh siDe wAS i tAKing...shAll aDd e pHotoS oF mAjoR anD bRandY lATer...
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005 || 6:01:00 AM
iT'S oNE thIng whEn i voLUnteEr 2 oFfer u mY seAT aND aNother whEre u comE iN froNt oF mE anD pOinteD tO mE u wANt mE tO stANd uP...iT mAtteRS nOt whEther u r sEnile, preGnant oR haF a kiD iN uR arMS...i duN lYk bEing toLD wAt tO dO, muCh leSs bEing toLD tO bE kINd tO u whO oBviouSly duN deServe iT...iF u cAN't hAndle uR kiD oN e trAIn, duN bRing hIM oUt...bEtteR stiLL duN repRoducE aT aLL...uR iNcapabilIty iSn't mY pRoblEm, reAllie...anD i duN cAre iF uR kiD iS retArded, u deServE hiM, pRob iT's beCox oF u...uTtEr sHAmelesSneSs...anD duN sAY iT's beCox i aM hAfinG a bAd dAY...yOU arE e oNE hAfinG aN uNlucKy oNE...----------------------------------------------------------------------------------suMtimeS whEn i teMporaRily loSt e reASon tO bE wiF u, i onLi hOpe tO fiND iT whEn i tuRn tO u...sO i diD...foR onCE u wEre tHEre bUt...sADly, u lEft e tASk tO mYselF...
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Monday, November 21, 2005 || 4:46:00 PM
mY eyEs feeLs lYk suMthinG iS twISted iNside anD e preSuure iS sO greAT suRelY iT's goNNa snAp aNytiME...
i aM tAt daRn tiRed...bUt mY sUbcoNCiouS stATe oF mIND reFusE tO leT mE gO tO bEd, iT's woRkiNG sO haRd anD aLL soRts oF stUff keEps flAShinG bY lYk tHEre iS nO toMorroW...foR onCe, mY heARt iS wOrkinG hANd iN haND wiF tAT pUny bRaiN...iT's reFusinG tO lEt mY onLi dAY oFf eND anD wAke uP tO e neXt 10 woRKinG dAYs...
e mORe i tinK oF nExt wEek, e glOOmier iT seEms...oTHEr thAn e fAct i aM woRking stR tO mOnth eND tAT iS...
sUmtimEs i woNDer, aM i oN uR mINd aS mUch aS u r oN miNE?...
aLl tAT mUSH aSIde, i fiND iT haRder aND haRder tO saY soRry...eVEn whEn i aM aT oBvioUS fAUlt, i cAn tiNk oF SO maNY eXcuseS tO 'defeND' mYsElf...toTAl aSburdiTy...yeT i eXPect aN aPologY evEn iF i hAF nO iNtentioNs oF foRgivinG...suCh doUble stANdards, iT's iRkinG mE tO nO enD...
anD thUS, i foRmerlY aPoloGies heRe...
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Sunday, November 20, 2005 || 3:52:00 AM
thiNgs oWaeZ haPPen whEn i aM nOt aDequAtelY dreSsed foR taT 'oCcasSion'...liKe meEtinG uR baSTard eX, fAv cRush oR bITchieSt enEmy...mOSt oF tHE timE i woUld bE slOppilY clAded iN wEird coMbinatIons oF coLOur aND piEces oF oLD slAckiNg cLotheS...yEt whEn i aM iN mY beST pAir oF jEans anD mOSt flATterinG tOp aLL tHEsE pEople sEems tO hAF vAnished fRm e fACe oF tHE eArth...doEs iT haPPen tO u pEeps tOo?...
yEst wAS a gOOd daY, i shOuld saY fAnTastiC...whY?...i shAll lEt u guEss...
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Friday, November 18, 2005 || 5:12:00 PM
suM coNverSatioNS juZ sEems sO mEaniNgleSs...suMone teAch me hOW iT maKE iT iNteresting...tAt aSide, woRkinG wiF pEople whO woRk, i meAN slOg, iS truLy mOtivAtinG...neVEr miNd iF i diN eAT e whOle dAY, iT wAS a haPPy dAY aT woRk cEpt tAt i pRob mAde suMonE uNhappY...viNCent toLD mE mONsteR diEd yeSt bUt onLi toDay i reALisEd moNSter wAS bEing pUt tO slP, anD nOt oF a naTuraL cAuse...iNitiaLLy i felT utter diSguSt aT tIS gUy whOm i toT lOve doGs bUt hE eXplaiNeD hIS eXperience wiF iNSiting oN sEekiNg trEatmenT foR hIS fiRSt sHEtlanD whiCh toTaLLy pUt mE iN a diLEmmA...nOt forGettIng hiS biG wEt eyEs aT e mEntioN oF e tWo deAThs...i guESs i aM selFish,aND pRobabLy poSsesivE...bUt i jUZ caN't iMAginE lEttinG suMonE okI suM dOg i loVe sO muCh lEave mE, thRu mY oWn wiLL anD dEciSIon...bEfore e tOk toDay, i oWaeZ tiNk pUttinG a dog tO slEep iS a cRuel aND hEartleSs thIng tO dO, i gUEss tiS sO-cAlleD pRincipLE iS soMEwhaT sHAken...viNCent toLd mE hOW hIS fiRst dog suFfered foR fIve lOng dAYs aftER e diScovery oF kIDney fAIlure anD hIS pErsistEnce iN gEttinG hEr treAted reSult iN 1) pAIn anD loSs oF stREngth foR e dog anD 2)hEr dying wiThoUt hiM bY hEr sIDe...sO iS iT stiLL cOrreCt foR mE tO waNNA haNg oN tO e vEry laST anD nOt giF uP, pOssibLy pUttinG mY bEstesT coMpanIon thRu pAIn aND aLL...aM i loVinG hIm thEn oR aM i jUZ pLAin uTteRly sElf cenTred?...gOOdneSs, pLeasE duN evEr leT tAT daY coME...
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i tiNk i aM wOrkiNg tOO hArD...coX i toT i sAw viC sELLing eConomiCal riCe aT e cofFeeshOp...naHZ, iT's jUZ anOther haNDsoME bUt uSeleSs gUy i nOE...iT's reALLie nOt eASy, fiVE stRaiGht dAYs oF wAKing uP aT 7.30 iRregArdleSs wAT tiME i slEep e nIte bEfOre...aND aDD tWo coNSecutIve dAYs oF whOle shIft...suRe, fuLL tiMErs dO tAT aLL e tiME, whO aM i tO coMplaiN?...i aM e pArt tiMEr tO comPlaIN!haHA...bUt weLL, i lOok foRwarD tO suM enJoyabLE sHopPing jUZ bEfore sChooL sTArts...tAt jUZ maKEs aLL e woRk mORe bEarabLE aND woRthwhIle i guEss...anD i wiLL nAMe iT 'e bAck tO sChoOL reWarD tRip', nOW tAT i haF a juStifieD reASon, i shALL enDeAvouR tO wORk tiL mY dEatH...i sTronglY bElievE iN e sAYinG 'u reAP wAT u sOW'...tAT bEing sAId, i lovE pResenTS...bOth giVinG anD reCeiVinG tHEm...e lAttEr wE aLL kNow whY...i lOve gIvinG prEsenTS bEcoX i lOVe tO sEe tAT lOok oN faCEs whOm lYk mY preSentS...sO stEphEn, stARt pRactisiNg!...
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Thursday, November 17, 2005 || 4:04:00 PM
wAt dO u dO whEn cRiSis mEets u iN e fACe?...i sAY, eMbraCE iT...iT iS gOOd foR uR gRowtH aNYwaYs...anD sO i shAll mASter mY nEw tAeguEk, aLL e wEirD stAnces aND mY knIFe hANd blOCk...gRAcioUS, juZ whEN wiLL mY finGers stoP lOoking sO frAGiLE aND gIRly whEn i aM dOIng mY deFensiVe bLockS...tAt aSiDe,wHEn i wAS yOunger, i hATe iT wHEn pEopLE aSk mE stuFf lYk 'R u suRE tiS iS e kINda lIFe u wANt iN fuTure?'...nOW i aPPreciATe e fAct taT tHEy nEver diD maKE anY sWeePinG sTAtemenTS lYk 'u R yOunG anD iGnoRanT'...e sCariesT paRt iS hOW i wAnnA aSk suCh quEstiOns anD maKE suCh stAtemenTs whEn i sEe yOunG coUpleS oF mY kiNd oN e stReETs, tRAinS, mAllS etC...wAT dO u dO whEn u fEel suMone u cAre aBt iS aVoidinG u?...u cAN't aSk bUt u R dYinG tO kNOw...aLL u wANt iS tO knOW hOW tO stOp tAT suMone fRm doIng tAT...alThoUgh i wISh vEry muCh anD i nOE u wiLL jUZ teLL mE nO, i aM vEry suRE tiS iS wAt'S haPpenIng...nOPe, jUX whEn i aM bLoggiNg, u cAllEd aND aSSured mE tiS iS nOt e cAse, iN uR vEry oWn waY...hOpefuLLy tAT wAS aN aSsuraNCe...*blEah*
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wAt dO u dO whEn cRiSis mEets u iN e fACe?...i sAY, eMbraCE iT...iT iS gOOd foR uR gRowtH aNYwaYs...anD sO i shAll mASter mY nEw tAeguEk, aLL e wEirD stAnces aND mY knIFe hANd blOCk...gRAcioUS, juZ whEN wiLL mY finGers stoP lOoking sO frAGiLE aND gIRly whEn i aM dOIng mY deFensiVe bLockS...tAt aSiDe,wHEn i wAS yOunger, i hATe iT wHEn pEopLE aSk mE stuFf lYk 'R u suRE tiS iS e kINda lIFe u wANt iN fuTure?'...nOW i aPPreciATe e fAct taT tHEy nEver diD maKE anY sWeePinG sTAtemenTS lYk 'u R yOunG anD iGnoRanT'...e sCariesT paRt iS hOW i wAnnA aSk suCh quEstiOns anD maKE suCh stAtemenTs whEn i sEe yOunG coUpleS oF mY kiNd oN e stReETs, tRAinS, mAllS etC...wAT dO u dO whEn u fEel suMone u cAre aBt iS aVoidinG u?...u cAN't aSk bUt u R dYinG tO kNOw...aLL u wANt iS tO knOW hOW tO stOp tAT suMone fRm doIng tAT...alThoUgh i wISh vEry muCh anD i nOE u wiLL jUZ teLL mE nO, i aM vEry suRE tiS iS wAt'S haPpenIng...nOPe, jUX whEn i aM bLoggiNg, u cAllEd aND aSSured mE tiS iS nOt e cAse, iN uR vEry oWn waY...hOpefuLLy tAT wAS aN aSsuraNCe...*blEah*
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Sunday, November 13, 2005 || 4:19:00 PM
i tinK iT's pUnishmEnt bEcoX i loVe saNta cAps aND i foRce iT oN doUDou...noW taT hE iS liMpiNg, eVen iF iT iS jUX tO reliEve hImselF,i aM sO heARt bRokeN...aLmoSt clOSe tO teArs...aNd mUch aS i hAte deCeit oF anY kiND i wiSh bEaniE woUld jUZ stArt wALkiNg nORmaLLy aGAin wHEn i wAVe hIS lEasH aT hIm...aND i reFuse tO bOW tO suCh coErciOn wATsoEvA fRm uP aBoVe...i wuN reSigN tO fAte...tO hEll wiF U!...bUt buT bUt i wAnT bEaniE tO reCover...tAT aSide, pArenTS sHld tAke nOte oF thEir kIDs' haBits oF diGginG thEir nOSes iN pUblIc anD tHen thE smEarinG oF wATevA wAS duG oUt oN stUff tHEy tOuch afTerwaRDs, cAuSing mE tO sCreAm hYStericALLy aLbeiT siLEntLy...gRoSs!
Saturday, November 12, 2005 || 4:04:00 PM
dOudoU iN hiS nEw cAp
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u cAn't sEe iT bUt hE's aCtuaLLy bEinG piNNed doWn
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i knOw iT's mOre thAn a liTTle eARlie bUt i jUZ cAN't reSist iT...sO i wEnt aHead, iNdulgE mYsElf aNd bOught tiS sanTA cAp foR doUDou whICh hE oBviouSly haTEs bUt i aBsolutEly loVE tO biTSsssSSs...foR onCe i goNna haFTa gO aGainsT hiS wiShes...i wiLL trY nOt tO dO iT tOo oFten bUt jUZ aLLow mE tO puT iT oN aT chRistmAs anD foR suM pHoTo shOots anD i wiLL bE jUZ coNtenTEd...sorrY beAnie...i loVE u bUt i so loVE sAnta cAPs tOo!
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i'vE bLue bLAcks oN mY aRms aND leGs, coUrtesY oF reGina, yEkai anD jIAwen...iT's gOod tRAiniNg, i juZ wiSh siR woUld rePeat iT whEn i aM oN a bEta daY (noT slEepY aND aLL)...aNd siNCe tiS iS lYk e 3rD coNsecutivE timE siR aRranGed for spArrIng, i tiNk hE miGht juZ dO eXactlY tAt...thIngY iS i goT thIS sCraTch maRk oN toP oF thE bruISe oN mY shOulder...chEcked mY gI anD iT waSn'T toRn oR waT, sO hOW diD i gEt sCratcHeS?...
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Friday, November 11, 2005 || 8:33:00 AM
chAlet hAS caME anD paSsed...iT waS jUZ sO-sO...quIte deAd aCtuaLLi...anD i aM leFt wiF tiS wEirD naGgy feEling taT i cAn't desCribE...i hOpe suMonE caN teLL mE waT iS taT...i aM tOO tireD tO coNtinuE diScoverinG waT's tAT aLL aBout aNways sO...i aM gG tO bEd...
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005 || 10:33:00 AM
mSn anD bLoggIng sUre dOes aLot for ur tyPinG sPeeD...
anYWay...i aM gOing craZy...
guEss wAT?...feEdinG mY nEopetS iS sO fuN NOW...oH nO, i aM coMpletelY dePriveD anD pRobaBly sUfferiNg fRm suM mEntaL diSordeR fRm eXceSsive lOnelinEss...i duN gEt hOW pPle cAN bE heRmits...
coUnting nOW, siNce i cAMe baCk fRm chEnyU's...iT's bEen 2 hOurs siNce i oPen mY mOuth tO spEaK anD kEeping qUiet iS toTaLLy bLowinG mY miND off...
i evEn miSs haFinG mY liTTlesT siS aRouND, shE waTches e 7pM anD 9pM seRialS wiF mE thRu tiS twO blArdy eXam wEeks anD i aM jUZ feEling a lIttLe loSt wiThouT her nOW...
i nOE nOW i aM truLy goNe...bUt iT iS wEird hOW oUr dAIly diNner-tV roUtine sEems sO coMfortiNg nOW tAT i aM nOt haFing it...
anYwaY, aftEr toKking tO chEnyU...i reALiseD bLog=oNline diAry...
diAry=pErsonaL
oNline=pUbliciSed
onLine diARy=oxYmoRon
anD pEeps, iT iS siCk taT u guYS wAnt a chALet aND thEn nOW wAnna stAY 4 oNe daY, foR e bBq oNli aND stuFf...
totALLy sICk...
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Monday, November 07, 2005 || 7:20:00 AM
juZ reAd a frEn's...aCquaitaNce?...whATeveR u cAll suMone u kNow bUt hAf nOt spOke tO iN yeArs...anyWay yaHZ i reAd aN eNtry oN hEr bLog...anD i juZ waNNa sAy duN gO aRd caLLing oTher pPle's paRtners 'deAr' 'dArliNg' oR aNythIng aKin beCox u r iN nO pOSitioN tO dO sO...iT heLps nOt taT i cAN sEe wiF mY toEs u cAnt geT a deCent oNe uRselF...anD i cAre nOt iF u caLL e reSt ur dArliNgs tOo...thEy aRe nOt mY gFs, coNsisteNcy iS nO eXcuse...bY e waY, roBbinG suMone iS aS hOrrID aS bEing a pAsseRby wAtchinG suMone eLSe gEt roBbed...tO pUt iT mORe clEarlY, kiSsinG suMone aNd lettinG suMone eLSe kiSs u iS eqUaLLy uNacCeptabLe...duN u feEl e leASt bIt emBarrASsed whEn u'vE beEn aSked tO stoP taT nuMErous timEs?...mAybe nOt...mayBE e deAd ceLLS oN ur hiDeous fAce hAve grOWn tOo thiCk foR shAMe oF anY kiND tO eXist...maYbe i shLD jUZ dO aN iCe creAM fAciaL maSK foR u suMdaY...taT aSide, sAY iF u aRe oUt wiF a bUnch oF frEns (saY chAlet) aND thEre iS tiS baSket oF aPples (iMagiNE iT tO bE aBsoluTelY deSirabLE) paSsed aRd wiF a roTten oNE iNSide...woUld u oR woUld u nOt tK e roTten oNE anD paSs iT oN?...whY aNd whY nOt?...jOSh aSked mE tiS laSt nIte...anD mY fiRst rePly iS taKe e roTten oNE coX i duN reaLLie lYk aPPles...tAT's whY i aSK u gUYs tO imaGine iT desIrabLe...bUt aFteR mUxh cLArificAtion i stiLL choSe e rotTen oNE...nOt bEcox i aM sO nOble aNd aLL...i jUZ duN waNt anYoNE elSe tO piCk iT uP aND kiCk uP a bIg fuSs, gEt a shOck oR jUZ baSicaLLy maKE nOise...u nOe, thOSe giRly coMplaiNts?...anD iT juZ hiT mE taT suMtimEs i maKe thOSe coMplaints tOO whIch toTaLLy diSgusTs mE nOW aND e mEre faCt tAt i nOE i mIght sUbcoNciouslY coMMit tiS paRticulAr SIN kNocks mE oUt...wEll iT's jUZ fOod anD i sEe nO bIg deAl iN taT...iF iT wAS a soUvenoIr mAybe i wuN bE aS eASy-goIng?...hOpefUlly nOt...woUld iT bE diFferenT iF iT waSn't a bUncH oF freNs bUt a bUnch oF stRAngers?...e wOrld cAN bE a bEttEr pLAce iF wE aLL chOOse roTten aPPles, nO?...
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Sunday, November 06, 2005 || 3:40:00 AM
goT pRopoSed tO oN e stReetS...
bEfore u gO oN 'woWinG' oR 'bOoing', hE waS aN agEnt...
i aM stUck bEtweEn bEing aMused wif hIS wit oF sOrts aND alArmeD aT e faCt maRriagE iS nO loNger saCreD...
i mEan, tO mE, iT nEver wAS...iT waS a pIEce oF pAPer tAT aLLow u tO geT chEapeR hOusing (aKA hDb) anD nOthinG mOre...wEll, pErhapS for thoSe whO waNNa reProduCe iT's aNother nAme oN ur kiDdo's bIrth ceRt...i hAve vOlunteerEd mY oWn iC tO mY coLLeagUe for reGiStry coZ hE waNts tO bUy a hDb anD hE's erMm a hOmo...i jUz seE iT aS a sOlutioN tO e riGiditY oF ciRcumstaNCes?...
bUt i toT suM trAditioNs, oR waTeva u cALL iT tiS pErsiStanCe wiF maRriage anD aLL, stILL exISts...pErsonaLLy i aM haPPie if e soCiety stArts tO oPen uP anD tiNk liTTle oF coNhabItatiOn, pRe mAritaL seX anD siNgle mUms bLAh...iT's reaLLie tOo mUch eMphasiS oN e viRginIty, mArriaGe, reProduce cyCle...
whICH oF cOursE iS a maJor diSturbanCe tO mY ideAL liFe...coX e sOciety dOesn't aCcept anD thUS mY pArents aND e oLder gEneratIon of mY extEnded faMilY wuN eiTheR...
tSk tSk i bEta shUt mY traP bEfore i gEt suEd foR bEinG diSruptiVE tO e stATe's greaT pLAns tO fiGht e greYing pOpulAtioN...
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Thursday, November 03, 2005 || 4:15:00 PM
hAir leT doWn, aGAinst e gLArinG heAdliGhts, biG biG stRides, sEmi dRenchEd, stRollIng iN e driZzle pUrposefuLLy aLonG tO jJ's doNg jiE...tAT felT reAL gOod!anYway e roArinG pIG cAme foR tRainIng toDay...aNd i hAd hEllUva gOod timE...shAron's iMitaTions oF hiM sEnt mE giGglinG nOn-stoP pLus mY diRect(nOt foRgetting auDible) iNsults oF hiS iNabilIty tO dO facE leVEl tuRninG kICks despIte shOwinG oFf hiS 'aLmiGhty' kiCks aT breAKtimE...bOy bOy hOw i loVe iT whEn i maDe hIm spEechleSs wif mY cRude rePly tO siR, anD toP taT uP wiF hiM fOotiNg e biLL for suPPer...hoW swEet...
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005 || 3:06:00 PM
foUr biG gaLS fiNishiNg aLL thE tiSsue pAcks thEy pOsseSs...wE cAme oUt wiF reD nOses, swoLLen eyEs, teAr striCken faCes aNd oVErly soAked tiSsues...tAt's e pOwer of a goOd pLot, a chArismatiC fAcE AnD quaLity aCtiNg skiLLs...i totAlly enJoyed thE moVie, iNcludinG e uNcontroLLable soBbinG...hOw i lOve bEinG sO deEplY mOved...aNd thE 1 thiNg i lEarnt anD hOpe suMone dOes iS tO nOt sAY 'tMr' aLL e timE coZ it maY nEver coMe...sO maNy a timE i fAntasize aBt beiNg iN chArlene's roLE...e neGlected yEt duTIfuL oNE...deAD bUt owAez reMembEred...gO oN lAff aT mE...
