“Life's Full of Temptations”
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Tuesday, May 30, 2006 || 10:13:00 AM
cAuGht x-mEn yEsteRdaY...iF u coUld haF mutAteD cEllS wHAt pOWerS woUld u pRefEr tO hAF?...i aM quITe stUCk bTW thE abILitY tO reAD pPLE's mInD anD thE abIliTy tO aCcompLISh wATEva uR mIND wAnTS...tOniTE's mY diNNer anD dANce, anD iT's sCArinG thE shIt oUtTA mE...i hAVen doNE anY pREparatiOn yEt...ZERO...pLUs i haVEn toT oF hOW tO iNtrO thE gaMEs anD woRkiNG wiF vIviAn iSn't reAllie hElpiNg...siNCe shE jUZ can'T sTop giGglIng duRing diScusSions...aRGhz...i haTE feEling tiS uNpRepaRed whEn i haFta stANd iN fRonT oF aN iMporTAnt cRowD...wiSH mE lUCk!...
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Thursday, May 25, 2006 || 11:11:00 PM
suMtimEs suM pPle jUZ duN gEt oFf ur mInd iSn't iT?...evEn iF u dO nOt nOE thEir nAme...hoPEfuLLy oNE daY u'D wALk iNto tHE shOp anD pUt a sMile oNtO mY faCE whEN i aM feELinG doWN...anD i wiLL haF a sEcoND chAnce tO reMEmbeR uR naME...iT's fuNNy hOW i dEsirE mEetinG suMonE i duNno mOre thaN thE oNEs i aLReadI kNew...lYk hOW i pRetTy mUCh prEfer tO toK tO cuStomErs oR aCquaintaNCes wHom aRE quIte iGnoranT aBt mY lIFe...thEy jUZ taKE mY mINd oFf wAt i duN waNNa tiNk aBT...oN thE oTher hANd, thEre aRe frEns lYk aiLing whO oNli nEedS 5 mIns tO uPdatE heRSelF wiF mY lIFe anD anothEr 5 tO uPdatE mE aBt hErs...anD shE iS toTaLLy cOOl wiF tiS wAT oTHErs woUld cALl lAck oF coMmitmEnt iN a fRensHip...anYways, lOSt mY tRail oF tHoughtS... cIAoz
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006 || 12:48:00 AM
sO a woMan wAlkS oUttA a cuBiclE lYk sHE jUZ fought a wAR anD whEn u wALk Into tAT vEry sAMe cuBicLE u sEe reMaiNS oF hEr vOmiT...duN u jUZ iMAgiNE sHE pUke, shE's prEgnanT, sHE dEf haD sEx anD pRollY haF aiDs?...iT's kIndA faR feTcheD i nOE, bUt aT leASt taT wAs e fiRst thIng taT cAMe tO mY mINd...yeAH i nOe, mY iMAginaTion iS ruNninG tOo wiLD...anYWay, enUff oF taT cRap...whIch sTar siGn dO u thInk uR doG bElonGS tO?...foR oWNers whOm wAtch tHE biRth oF tHEir pUppY oR nOEs e eXact D.O.B u nEed nOt aNswer...foR oWners lYk mYself whO aDopt thEir flUfflY frienDs or foUnd thEm...tRy i aDopteD doUdou oN dEc 14 2001, pLus mY oWn siGn iS sAGitTArioUS sO i prEttY mUch lYk tO thInk oF mY haNDsoME bOy aS a sAgi tOo...beSideS, hE quiTE lYk mE...fAT, vaIn, lAzybUM, grEedy, aDorabLE, gOod-lOokiNg nOnethelEsS anD toTAllY a daRlinG...hAha *bLush blUSh*...niTez, tmR's a lOng hArd daY...i shUddEr aT thE toT oF iT...PS: cArinG foR mE afTEr i haF toLD u u diN doEsn't coUnt...aS leaSt nOt aS gEnuinE aS u tiNk...sO i reALLie duN mInd iF u duN...yOu wANt oN paR eXpectatIons?...i gIF u ZERO...MOFFATTS"Miss You Like Crazy"I used to call you my girlI used to call you my friend I used to call you the love The love that I never had When I think of you I don't know what to do When will I see you again[Chorus:] I miss you like crazy Even More than words can say I miss you like crazy Every minute of every day Girl I'm so down when your love's not around I miss you, miss you, miss you I miss you like crazy You are all that I want You are all that I need Can't you see how I feel Can't you see that my pain's so real When I think of you I don't know what to do When will I see you again [Chorus]
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006 || 12:15:00 PM
uPdatE aT 12.27pMbEforE u lOudlY pRoclAIm uR diSsaPpointMEnt, chEck iF iT reAllie diD mAttEr iF i aM tHEre oR nOt...mAybE mY iDea oF a hOlidaY, oF reLAxIng, oF eNjoYmenT, oF hAvinG a gOOd tiME iS jUZ sO diFferenT fRm u...
aND jUZ bY e wAY, iT wAS aN sOS mSg tAT u iGnORe...bUt i wiLL nV coMmiT e saME mIStakE twIce...-------------------------------------------hOW dO u meASure iMportanCe?...whEther suMone, sumthing, suM evEnt iS iMportANt?...iSsit hOW mUCh u gEt iN reTurn?oR hoW mUch u wouLD giF uP foR iT?i guESs iT abIt oF bOth...whEn u aLreadI deEm suMthiNg iMporTant, u jUDge thEm bY hOW mUCh u giF uP foR thEm...oN thE othEr haND, whEn sumthinG's nOt iMportANt, u cALculaTe hOW muCh u gEt iN reTurn...
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006 || 1:19:00 AM
.. "whICh bReeD wEre yOu coNsiderinG?""eRMmmM, i wANt a doG tAt iS nOt shORt hair bUt doEsn't nEed mUCh grOominG, eASy tO diSciPlinE, doEsn't baRk oR chEW aT mY stUFf...aiYAh duN wANt thOSe pRoblEmatIc oNE..."i fEel lYk aSKinG tAT lAdy whEre shE reCommeNDs foR cuStomiZEd doGs...whY nOt reQuesT foR oNE tAT doEsn't pOo oR pEe bUT jUZ siT pRettiLy aT a cOrner tiL u cAll iTs nAMe?...thEre iS nO mAgic iN e woRld, u wANt aN oBediEnt doG ?...sEnd hIm foR trAIninG...bUt bE wArneD tAt trAIning doEsn't riD doGs oF oTher 'pRoblemS' lYk skIn diSeaseS, pOor eAtinG haBits anD baRkinG iS bUt a nAturE oF doGs...woUld u lYk iT aS mUCh iF uR kID iS bOrn dumB?... uTter stUpiDity...oN mY wAY tO hoLLand V fRm PS tOniTE, a suDden surgE oF mOre-thAN-u-cAN-imAGinE coNfiDencE ruSh oVEr mY eNtirE bEIng...i fEel aLmoSt lYk i cAN flY...suRe mAny a tiME mY coNfidenCe tAKes a faLL wIth uNpleasaNt evEnts anD taT pRevenTS mE fRm chEckiNg coNFidenT aS oNE oF my chAraCterisTics...bUt i dO bElievE suM pPle nEver gEts haLf waY oF mY coNfidenCe leVEl evEn aT tHEir mOSt coNfidenT tiMEs...whEn u reAch roCk boTtoM thERe's NO other wAY tHAn goIng uP...aNd mE, i dUn gO uP...i pRollY taKE a roCket oR sumthinG...anD nOW, i aM lOvinG hOW i aM sO iN coNtroL...hOW i dun depEnd oN anYoNE tO mAKe mE haPpie...hOW i cAN bE hAppIE oN mY oWn...anD i endeavoUr tO
1) cATch a mOviE wiF mYself
2)pLAnt mY bUtt aT a caFE anD reaD oN my oWn
i jUZ reALise iT iS quiTe peaCefuL anD soOthing tO bE aT hoLLand V oN weEkdayS' afTErnOons...
i hOPE tiS laST a lOnG lOng timE...beCox tHEre wEre tOo maNy stuFf gOing oN preViouslY taT toTAllY draiNEd mE aND i reAlliE dO admIt taT i neEd tiS stRength tO caRry on frM herE...tHEreforE...wiMps of thE woRld uNiTE...baNG uR heAds toG anD geT oUt oF mY lIFe...
wEll weLl, whEn i aM tiS coNfidenT...i cAN bE quiTe mEan...
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Thursday, May 11, 2006 || 3:01:00 AM
Stay The Same
by Joe Mcintyre[Chorus]Don't you ever wish you were someone else,You were meant to be the way you are exactly.Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are. When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.And I hope you always stay the same, cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.[Verse]I think that you could be whatever you wanted to beIf you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.[Chorus][Bridge]Believe in yourself.Reach down inside.The love you find will set you free.Believe in yourself, you will come alive.Have faith in what you do.You'll make it through.[Chorus]hEre iS a giRl, iN a coRner wiTh nOwhere elSe tO hiDe...aLl eyEs aRe oN hEr, fiLled wiF anGer anD diSappOintmEnt...nOthiNg shE doEs iS right anYmore, poSsibLy evEr...fRens oR eNemiEs aRe a tOtaL bLur...shE sWings fRm wiShing sHE couLd pLEase evEryonE aT oNE mOment tO bEIng detErminEd thAt shE wiLL stARt lIvinG for herSelf onLi thE otheR...shE fiNds coMfort iN cAN fOOd anD stRAngerS...reLief iN woRk anD stuDies...aNd sO shE iS thEre,sMiliNg...
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006 || 12:23:00 AM
i juX waNNa siT bY thE waLLs...
nOthinG feEls saFer thAN taT...nOw lEt's shAre tiS soNg fRm a lOng lOng timE agO tHAt wAsn'T taT lOng agO foR mE...written by L.A. Reid, Babyface, Daryl Simmons (1988)performed by Karyn WhiteEarly in the morning I put breakfast at your tableAnd make sure that your coffee has it's sugar and creamYour eggs are over easy, your toast done light-lyAll that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet meNow you say your juice is sour, it used to be so sweetAnd I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about meWe don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting me so deepI got my pride, I will not cryBut it's making me weakI'm not your superwomanI'm not the kind of girl that you can let downAnd think that everythings OKBoy I am only humanThis girl needs more than occasionalHugs as a token of love from you to meI fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for youI want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for youBut when you get there you just tell me you're not hungry at allYou said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talkYou're like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changedI'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the sameYou're just going through the motions and you're not being fairI got my pride, I will not cryStill I can't help but careHOOK 2 timesOoh baby, look into the corner of your mindI'll always be there for you through good and bad timesBut I can't be that superwoman that you want me to beI give my everlasting love if you return love to meHOOKIf you feel it in your heart and you understand me Stop right where you are, everybody sing along with meI'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweetBut you got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to meI need love, I need trust, your love
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006 || 12:56:00 AM
How can I just let you walk away Just let you leave without a trace When I stand here taking Every breath with you You're the only one Who really knew me at all How can you just walk away from me When all I can do is watch you leave 'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain And even shared the tears You're the only one Who really knew me at all So take a look at me now 'Cause there's just an empty space And there's nothing left here to remind me Just the memory of your face Take a look at me now Oh there's just an empty space And you coming back to me is against the odds And that's what I've got to face I wish I could just make you turn around Turn around and see me cry There's so much I need to say to you So many reasons why You're the only one Who really knew me at all So take a look at me now 'Cause there's just an empty space And there's nothing left here to remind me Just the memory of your face So Take a look at me now So there's just an empty space But to wait for you is All I can do When that's what I've got to face Take a good look at me now 'Cause l'll still be standing here (standing here)And you coming back to me is against all odds That's the chance I've got to take Yeahh Take A look at me now(Take A Look at me now)i nOe i cAN...gO aGainsT aLL odDs...anD i mArvel aT e stREngtH witHin...
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Friday, May 05, 2006 || 11:36:00 AM
tiS mOrninG i wakE uP wiF vEry lOvelY toTs oF suM pPle tAt arE deAr iN mY lIfe...anD i knOW i nEver reAllie spEnd enUff tiMe wiF thEm...yEt thEy haF bEen mOSt uNderstanDing toWards mE...iT'iS nOt taT kiNda oH-i-aM-uSed-tO-iT kInd bUt reaLlie tRue aCceptancE oF whO i reAllie aM...oR at leASt tAt iS waT i feEl anD i hOpe iT iS trUE...anD lYk i oWaez aM, riGht nOW i feEl sO mUCh graTitude anD waNna bE reaLlie nIce tO thEm bUt iN thE enD i pRob lOSe foCus aLong thE waY anD gO baCk tO yOu-knOW nOt eXactlY nIce...iT iS ceRtainlY nOt taKing thEir uNderstanDing foR grAnTEd thOugh...iT iS juZ ME...sO i tHAnk yOu, hUimiN, aiLing, shAH shAH, kAy, jOrdaN foR lEttIng mE bE mE...foR lEttiNg mE bE uTmoSt hOnesT wiF u guYS, wiTh mYSelF...foR mAkinG tHinGS lESs coMplicatEd iN mY liFe...fOr mAKing thIngs mOre coMfortaBle foR mE...anD i tiNk vEry sO ofTen, iN fAct tOO oFten, u meEt tOo maNy pPle whO gEt anGry wiF u tOo quiCk anD tOo mUch thEy toTallY stResS uP ur lIFe anD mEsS uP ur miNd...yEt iT iS bEcOX tHey truLy caRe, thoUgh mAybE nOt enUff iN mY oPinioN whiCh thErefoRe cAUse mY relUctanCe tO evEn trY coMmunicatiNg...thEy jUZ maKE u wAnnA ruN awAy anD taKe thE eASY wAY oUt...bY iGnorinG thEm oR bY sAYing, doIng stUff thAt u kNow makE thEm haPpier oR lEsS nOisY jUZ sO uR lIFe iS eaSier...iT maY soUnd sO iRresPonsiBle aNd seLfisH...bUt whY tAKe pResSure fRm anYonE reALlie...liVinG uP tO their eXpectaTions iNStead oF uR oWn, iT iS jUZ tOo sUffOcatinG fOr mE...i aM siCk oF beiNg nICe anD gOody...doIng stuFf foR oThers, wiTh mYSelF takIng a baCk seaT iN mY oWn liFe...nOW duN taT soUnd sO crAzy?...aNd sO, tHAnz tO thE aBove mEntioNed pPle...foR mY frEedoM aND lIberaTion...i hOpe i cAN reMember tO bE aS niCe tO u gUYs iN thE wAYs u pRefer fRom tiMe tO tiME...anD hUimiN, i hAf sO maNy iDeaS oF uR bDae pResenT...i jUZ hOPe u woUld lIke mY finAL chOice...i lOve u sO mUch...
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Thursday, May 04, 2006 || 2:20:00 AM
tHe beSt thIng aBouT haFing bRAces shOuld bE thAt u duN haFta shEll uR crAbs bY uRselF i guEsS...aND i haF tHE lUxurY oF tHAT toNite...nAHz wASN't aNy cElebrAtioN cEpt foR mY pRobabLE dOomsdaY tMr bUt franKly i hAF quIte giVEn uP...mayBE tmR i wiLL waKE uP wiTh a reASonabLE amT oF pANic iN mE tO reVise a lIttlE...bUt iT coULd oWaez gO e oTher waY anD i wiLL jUZ toTAllY giF uP...weLL weLL eiTher waY, nOW iS nOt thE tiME tO tiNk oF suCh stuFf...bUt reaLLie, waT tyPEs oF coLLAboRAtiON aRE thEre?...diD i miSs suM slIdes oR aM i jUZ tOO blIndeD tO sEe iT...anD aT tiMEs lYk tiS i jUZ kNEw tAt i woUld regRet nOt chEckinG iT oUt bEcox iT wiLL bE oNE oF thE queStions tMr taT i oNce haD e chAnce oF sEcurinG...sO hEre i gO, tALking aBt giVing uP but eVEntuaLly goIng baCk tO checK out tiS naGging qUestion aT thE baCk oF mY hEAD...tAta...nItes tO thE wOrld whO aRen't taking oTd tmR...yOu aRe reaLlie a lUcky bUnch...
