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Thursday, August 31, 2006 || 12:46:00 AM
i maDe cuRry chICken foR mY famIly toDay...mY fiRst pOt oF cuRry chICken...i wAS quiTe iMpreSsed wiF iT...coNSiderinG i duN haF anIthinG buT pOtatoeS,cArrots,chICken, gaRliC, giNger, oYster sAUce, suGar anD cHicken fLAvouRed sEasoNing pOwder...nEver mINd iF i reCEive suM uNWorthY criTicisMS...aT leAst aLL wAS leFt waS a quArteR oF pOtatO...reCentlY i haF bEen thInkiNG oF tiS pHRase 'pUt uRselF iN heR shOEs'...aNd jUZ pRactiSIng taT menTalLy opEned mY eyEs tO e 'miStakEs' i uSed tO coNDemN oThers foR...i wASn't iN thEir pOSitioN, diN eXperieNCe wAT tHEy diD, nOR faCE e saME peOple thEY haVE tO...suM thIngs wEre haRd tO jUStifY tiL thE cRitiC fiLLs thE shOes oF thE criTicisEd...iN shORt, i beCame kiNDer...haHaha...*giGGles*...
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006 || 12:49:00 AM
i tiNk i aM jUZ nOt very gOod wiF e elDerlY iN geNEraL...cAn u bElievE i tiNk tAt a siXty pLus iS takIng aDvantaGE oF mE?...i cAN't bUt weLL i dO feEl shE iS taKing mE for graNteD...maYBe i aM jUZ nOt veRy coUrteouS/pOlitE/fillAl kINd...aLL i cAN tiNk oF iS 'sHE's geTtinG e sAMe aMounT oF paY pEr hOur waT'...maYbe i aM juZ a mEaniE aFteR aLL tO tiNk taT oF aN oLD laDy, maYbe i aM nOt vEry beNEvolenT, nOR iSsit iN mE tO bE eSp coNsideraTE tO thEm taT's whY i fEel taT mY eFforts iN gOing oUttA mY waY shLD bE aPPreciaTEd...bUt elDerlY oR noT, shLdn't gRAtitudE bE a wAY oF lIFe?...u duN teLL mE 'iT's bEcoX u diN pUt pRoperlY' wHEn i coUldn't cloSe e lID oF e dArn vAcuUm clEaner bOX aFTer i paInstaKinglY vaCuuM uR stOre's flOor beCauSe i nOE u duN & i'M afRaid iT'LL bE tOo duSty foR ur coMfort...iT's jUZ lYk aFTer i oFfer mY sEat on pUblIC trANspoRt tO aN elderlY i eXpect a 'thANk yOu'...i duN neeD e 'veRy mUch' tO foLlow...iSsit tOo mUch tO aSk?...anYways, wATeva iT iS...i sEe mYSelf quIte sTuck iN e situatiOn and i duN iNteNd tO dO aNithing aBt iT...iT's jUZ vEry mE tO sit & dO nOthiNg abt the diScomfort i fEel...i uSed tO tiNk i oWaez stAnd uP for mYselF anD gEt baCk aT anYone whO stEps oN my 'lOng aNd sWingiNg' taIl...bUt i haF cOme tO reaLise it is maJority nOt thE cASe...& tIS uNeXpected reALiSation cAMe aS quIte a sHock...tMr's tuesdaY agAIn...yaYy!!...iT's wAYne's lectUre aGAin...i eNjoY hIS lEctureS lYk nO oTHers...hIS gOod lOoks + chArisma + wiT + greAT sEnse oF hUmour iS aN adDitioNaL bOnuS...bUt reALlie hIS lEctureS aRe fuLl oF eXperieNces i feEl i cAN leaRn fRm...aLthoUgh it's nOt vEry uSefuL in terMs of aCademic...anD whY dO wE foCus sO mUCh oN aCademIc whEn wE retuRn evErything, wEll mOSt of thEm, wE leaRnt tO e lectureRs aFter e veRy pAPer?...i guEsS diFferent pPle haF difFerent pRioritiEs anD miNE iSn't veRy aCademIcaLly baSed...i feEl thERe aRe thIngs mOre iMporTAnt thAN eXams aND ceRtificATes...wAT i lOSt fRm thE lectureS i cAN reaD uP iN mY teXtbOok bUt wATevA iNSightS i gaiNed i cAN nV fiND fRm aNywHere eLSe bEcoZ iT's aLL uNiquE...iT's prEtTy uNfair tO saY hiS leCtureS aRe uSeleSs eNtertainment iN my oPiniOn...beCoz i gUEss iT oNli meANS u aRen't veRy 'deEp'...i sO lOok forwaRd tO tmR...woNderiNg iF i shLd gO hOme afTEr clASs nOt...iF i dO i cAN fiND sUm coRner iN e lIbrARy oR cinEma tO enteRtaIn mYSelF beFore i woRk, i cAN gET suM sCh work doNe tOo...bUt mY feEt sO deSire bIrkieS...
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Monday, August 21, 2006 || 2:41:00 AM
We . . . . . . . .Come from the greatest club,We come from the OAC,We come as a member of the great greatclub,We fight for the victory,We fight for the glory,We fight with a spirit never knownbefore..OAC! OAC! All the way!!We like it here, We like it here,We've found a home.A home, A home,A home sweet home!!!!tiS iS e oFficiaL OAC soNg...thOugh sAD tO saY nYOAC nO loNger eXist (chANgeD tO oDac nOW), i guESs iT reMAins iN thE heaRts oF thOSe whO eXperiEnce it...peRhaPS i wAS seaRchiNG foR streNgth, maYbe sUm wiLL-pOWer...tiS song cAMe poPpinG oUttA mY mEmorY whIle i wAS doIng mY laIndrY jUZ nOW...aT fiRst tHE lINes wEre aLL jUmblEd uP bUt iT slOWly beCame clEar aS i sTArt tO recALL thE tuNE & e sCenes oN thE oLD nY trAck tAT glIDes paSt whIle wE rAN & sANg iN stEps...i aM suRe tiS iS hOW thiNgs eVolve...aLL miXed uP aT firSt & thN mORe & mORe diStincT...suM thIngs taT weRe sO horrIble tO yOu aT oCcurenCe cAn bE sWeeT & nOStalgiCaL? afTEr yeaRs gO bY...beCox sum oTher mORe hoRribLE & teRrifyInG stuFf wiLL haPPen...aSk mE iF i woUld lIve mY lIFe e sAME wAY & maKE thE saME deCisioNS aGaiN...mAjoritY yeS & deFinatelY OAC...aLl thaNKs tO suMoNE whO maDe mE jOineD OAC...aNywaYs, todAY thEre wAS a nAStY cuStomEr...u knOW, thOSe miSer (gRAb e chEapesT), a liTtle kNowledgabLE ( bUt tiNKs shE iS a gEnius), aLl cuStomeRs' riTEs deVoteE kInd?...yUcks...dRove mE & pIng nUts...thOugh e cOMpanY prInteD e wRong pRice taG, wE diN chArge u yEt aLrite u miSeraBle, oBnoxioUs, oH-sO-wAnna-bE-hiP AUNTIE...sMAll caSes coUrt? deNy u e chANce tO bUy?...cRap!...& i hOPe uR faCE jUZ faLLs aPArt tmR mORninG whEn u wAKe uP & taT $2.25 u sAVed wuN bE abLE tO evEn sAVE a siNgle skIn ceLL..stUpiD oLD hAG!...gO roT iN heLL aND bE iNFesTEd wiF woRms & bUgs...okI pEepS...wAT's aN eArthwoRm iN mANdariN?...
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Friday, August 18, 2006 || 7:36:00 PM
iT iS jUX a thIn liNE bTW bEing aMbitioUS aNd bEing grEedY...nOW aMbitioUS soUNds a liTTle mORe negAtivE thaN haVing aMbitioNs, duN u tiNk sO?...sO hOW dO wE nOE whEN aRe oUR amBitioNS maKing uS grEedY?...r u grEedY?...i tiNk i aM nOt...bUt i duN tiNK iT's a vIRtue...iN faCt iT's e oPposIte, bEcox i aM laZy...whEn i aM iN a siTuatIOn i aM diSsatisfieD wiF, i kEep trYinG & tryIng tO maKE mYselF sAtisfieD...bUt oNCe i aM haPpie wiF thE waY thINgs aRe, i dUn aSk 'iS thEre sumthiNG elSe tO maKE iT beTA?'...bEcoX i gEt aLL stuCk iN mY coMFort zoNE aFter taT & remAIn tOo daRn laZY tO moVE mY aRse...i nOE maNy oUt thEre kEep tryIng evEn though thIngs aRe aLReadI prEtTy & gOod, i duN tinK iT's wRong...i jUZ tiNk iT cAN geT preTty tiRinG sumtimEs, wEll, mOSt oF thE tiME...anYwaYs, toDay i haD coFfeE wiF mYSelF, aT a timE whEre e woRld iS buStliNg wiF thEir iNDividuAL roLEs & yEt i woULd usUAllY stiLL bE deAD aSleEp...anD i aM suRprisEd aT hoW emPOwereD iT maDe mE feEl..thoUgh iT's oNli foR haLF aN hoUr, i reALlie enJoyeD mYSelF trEmendoUSlY...bUt mayBE iF u maKE mE siT thEre lOnger, i wiLL bEcomE uNeaSY & stArt feElinG taT evEry1 iS lOokinG aT mE...sO i guEsS iT's jUZ aS weLL i stART slOW...afTeer e eXhauStinG aND eXhaUSteD lEtoUt, i hopE i wiLL fEel bEta sOon...i jUZ duN fatHom hOW coME pPle kEep sAYinG i aM cOmplicAteD, iT soRta teArs mE apArt heARing taT...iT juZ makes me feEl taT i aM sO miSundersTOoD, oR nOt undersTood aT aLL...u cRy whEn pPle u cAre abT hURt u...iT iS reAlliE aS siMplE aS tAT...
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006 || 4:01:00 AM
wAt dO u dO iF u hAf a frEn wiF a maJOR flAW tAt hE/sHE isN't aWare oF?...u nOE hiS/hER iNTentioNS aREn't aS evIL, aT leASt nOT tO suM oF thOSe whOm u nOE miSunderstOOd hER...woULD iT bE difFErent nOW tAT u uRsElf iS aNgry wiF taT frEn?...miLK anD a fiZzY soFt-dRink, whiCh woULD u chOOSE?...i tiNk deCisioNS aRe sCarY, bEcauSe thE coNSequEnceS arE...tAT plUS e pOssiBilitieS oF reGretS...hOW dO u nOE foR suRE taT u wuN bE wroNg?...iT breAks mY heaRt tO sEe thOSe i cARe abT upSet wiF mE oR thE thiNGs i dO...i trY mY beST tO maKE iT beTTEr foR evEryoNE i cARe aBT, aT thE eXpensE oF mY oWN haPPineSs reCEntlY...bUt suMtimeS aLL thEsE tryIng jUZ maKE mE wAnnA ruN aWay anD hiDE whEre mY aCtioNS cAN nO loNGer hURt anYone...i aM juGgliNG tOO muCh sTuFf whEn i oNli haF tWo haNDs yEt i dO nOt nOE wHIch tO pUT doWN...i noE i wuN bE abLE tO lASt vERy lONg, juGglIng occURs twEnty-sEven anD sO doEs thE feEling oF weaRineSs...stiLL, i aM geTtinG weARier bY thE daY...shEer pHysicaL weARineSs tAT i nV iMAginE poSsiblE fRm emOtionaL diStreSs...aT tiMEs, i wiSH suMonE caN maKE thE deCisiOn foR mE, bUt coME tO thiNk abT iT...iF i caN't deCidE whICh iS beST, whO elSE caN?...
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006 || 12:27:00 AM
revenge:To inflict punishment in return for (injury or insult). An action taken in return for an injury or offense. e kEy woRd bEing rEturN...iF u tOk aBt khArma, i tiNK iT's e oTHer pArty'S...e pLAnnIng iS eXcitinG aND jUZ sWeeT bUt i bEliEve e eXcutiOn sHld bE pURe blIss...i haD e pLEasuRe oF bOth toDay anD i hOpe tmR...nO oNE geTS awAy fRm iNjuring mE...weLL, i lOok aT iT aS sElf-deFence...aNywAys, i haD eYeliNEr oN toDay!!...yAyy!!...mY sEcoND aTtemPt, bUt e fiRst reAl tiME i aM weArinG iT oUt...coX i sMudgE iT wiF eYEshAdoW e pRevioUS iN feAr anD coWardiCe...i loVE hOW twO nOt-sO-siMple lInes eNlaRge mY sMAlL pUnY alMost nOn eXistent eYes...suMtimEs iT's a woNder hOW siMplE thIngs cAN bE sO fuLfiLLinG aND sAtisfyIng...teLl mE hOW mUch cAN eyElinEr pEnciL coSt?...dIsregArd e bRandeD oNEs...bUt i cAn reCeive sO mUch iN reTurn...tAt's hOW reVEngE, mY reVEngE sTRikE bAck aS weLL...oKi oKi eNuFf oF revEngE...bUt i duN iNteNd tO gEt mYSelF hOokeD oNtO eyElinEr...aNithiNg foR taT maTTer...saLmoN saLmOn saLmoN...yuMmy!!...
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006 || 12:37:00 AM
fiRst thIng fiRst...evAdeaResT, lOvieSt, preTtieSt, seXieSt, clEverest, anD beSteSt freN oF aLL mS lEong hUimiN...i lOve yoU i lOVe yoU I LOVE YOU!!!!doUdOu's geTtinG evErywhEre wiTh tAt lOok oN hiS fuRry faCE...toTallY cApablE oF cRippLing mY heaRt...anD hoW swEet hE iS tO slP aT e foOt oF mY beD evErytiME i aM aLone aT hoME...reAlliE maKEs anY sEventH mOntH aFternOon mUch eASier oN mY neRves...hE iS sO sO sO sOOOOooOOOoOo aDorablE whEn hE iS fInisHing oFf a sEed oF duRian...i duN tinK hE lOOks grEedy, nOt goBbliNg (thoUgh i tiNk hE toTally muSz bE)...anD tiL noW hE's stiLl lIckiNg hIS liPs aT e doOr of mY beDrOom...hE lOoks lYk a pUp sO muCh aT tiMEs i cAn bElievE haLf oF hiS lIfe haS wiZzleD paSt...anD suMtimeS i geT sO aFraiD lOokiNg aT hIm sLp, beCox i reCkOn taT'd bE hoW he'Ll lOok lYk whEn hE leAVes mE...bUt eAch haS iTs oWn tiME...iN oCcuriNg, iN paSsing...biScuit iS sEven tiS yR, aNd sO iS doUDou...bUt whILe dOudoU stIll haS haLf oF hIS liFe reMAinIng, biScuIT iS alMost thEre...sEven yRs, suCh a lOng tiME aGo...i miSs naTionaL daY cElebraTions iN sChoOl...u nOE whEre u haF a haLF daY taT iS spEnt sInginG nAtionaL daY soNgs anD thE yR's thEme soNg...pRollY suM sTagE pErformaNCe anD isSit thE greAT woRkout tiME aS weLL?...u sEe uR sENoirs, anD oF coUrse jUnioRs, pLus ur sEcreT cRusheS...haPpie naTionaL daY evE evEryonE...
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Sunday, August 06, 2006 || 12:17:00 AM
a shOpping trIp wiF nO coNqueSt aT aLL...nOt tAt i aM coMplaiNing, i reAllie nOE nuTS abT thE vaRious beAUty pRoductS i sEe anD thEy aLL jUZ makE mE diZzy...sO muCH sO i mIGht aS weLL sEw uP mY dreSs anD trAnsverSe iNto a gUy...i aM iNadequAte iN a waY...tsK tsK...huImiN, thAnz fOr tryIng uMpteEn tiMEs foR mY toY...iT's tOo baD wE diN gEt wAT i wiSheD foR iN thE eND bUt iT reAllie toUcheS mE thaT u kEpt oN trying...e coRreCt nO oF tiMes...iT's haRd tO sAY hOW mANy $1 coIns wiLL bE eNuFf tO toUch mY heArt anD hOW mUCh wiLL sTArt maKing mE heaRt-achE foR thE $...anD i guEsS whEn i sAY 'nO nEed laHZ'...'duN wanT laHZ'...iT's oSo vEry diFficuLt tO guEsS whEn i reAlliE meAnt it anD whEn i aM aCtuaLLi sTiLL hOpiNg foR mORe...weLL, iT's foR mE tO nOE anD u tO fiNd oUt...
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Friday, August 04, 2006 || 12:41:00 AM
mUmmY deAresT iS e hEroinE oNCe aGaiN!!!...Mother:A woman who conceives, gives birth to, or raises and nurtures a child. mY deFinatioN?....motheR:deNTist, pLumbEr, cAregivEr, peSt coNtroL, brEAdwinnEr, paInteR, sEamtrEsS, rePairwoMan anD sO mUCh mORe...thEre wAS tiS flYinG bUg iN mY beDroOm tAt chASe mY yOUngeSt siS oUttA heR slUmber, oUttA heR beD anD oUtta thE roOm...anD iT's mUmmy tO e reScue...sO tOniTE mUmmY iS e peSt coNtroL...anD a caPAble woMAn whO nURtureS thRee bRats iNto weLL-beComiNG peRsons fiTted iNto maINstreaM hoWevEr bORing tAT maY bE...i doUbt i cAN evEr dO aS weLL iF i weRe tO repOrduce...anYwayS, bEen reADing mY fiRst nORa roBErts bOok...faIrytalE iN mODern tiMEs...sPlendiD, oNli iF theY werEn't sHort sTorieS lYk tAt...iT woUld bE mUCh mORe bEautifuL tO sEe e cHAractErs anD thEir liVes devElop fUrtheR...i hAF a fiVE-cEnt woUnd oN mY kNEe...trIpPed ovEr a roCk hIDing deSpicaBly uNDer a faLLen leaF...tSk tsK
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006 || 12:18:00 AM
eVEn woRld's lOngesT-laStiNg baTtery drIes oUt eVentuaLLy doEsn't iT?...sO i guEss mIne iS near...duN tiNk i'M dYing jUZ yeT...duN bE TAT laME...suMtimEs i woNder wHy i hAfta leAd suCh a bUSy sCheduLE taT thEre iS nO pOSsibiLities oF aDding aNy uNexpeCted lEisure iN...anD iT's reAllie mORe thAn jUZ fOrgoiNg bIrkenstOCks, shOppIng trIps & e vaNity oF haVing strAight teEth...thEY jUZ sErve tO maKE mE haF a pUrposE...i wiSh i wAS boRn wiF a siLVer spOon...maKE taT a bRonze...iT's jUZ sO riDiculOus tAT mY freNS haFta maKE aPpts wiF mE bY mOnth eNd foR thE foLLowinG mOnth...i meAn iF i haF a frEn lYk tiS, i pRoLLy tiNk shE's nUts & taT i aM sO iNsignifIcAnt...anD iT's difFicUlt tO dO anIthiNg bEing aS haLF hEarteD aS i aM cuRrentlY...i diN neEd & wiLL nV dO neEd anYonE tO aSk mE tO stoP woRkinG oR giVing tuItion, juZ eMpathiSe...bUt oNli fRom thE riGht oNEs i guEsS...whO vEry oFten duN haF e riGht words...*siGh*suMone aSKeD mE iF mY siGhs haF bEcoME haBituaL...weLL, maYbe aNd maYbe nOt...reAllie, i hAF nO enErgy tO bE coNcerneD aBt aNyoNE, tO dO anY anSweriNg oR soOthing OF oThers' nEgativiTy aBt mE, mY lIFe oR theIrs...
