drEw thiS awHile aGo... aT thE coUrse whEre i wAS drOoling oVer soMe amEricaN fisHmoNgers aT thE pIke's pLAce...
thE trAiner sAid 'draW foUr thiNgs thaT yoU liKE, oR maTTer tO yoU, oR yoU thiNk iS iMportanT, oR thaT sumS uP yoUr eXistenCe. anD aDD yoUr lIfe mOtto.'...
mANy oF mY coLleagUes, nOt tHat i evEn kNow theM (wE jUst aLL wOrk iN tHe saME oRg thAT's aLL), drEw $$$, carS, homE, faMily aND friEnds... oR evEn ZZZ...aNd soME drEw LOVE...
i dreW whAT i nEEd tO maKe mYsElf haPPy... doGs, wAkeboaRd, abilitY tO leaRn anD trAVelling bAck tO YNP... iN sOme waYs i nEed mOney tO geT aLl thaT... bUt i juSt haTed thOSe whO pUt doWn $$$, whICh theY cLaim coUld nEver maKE thEm haPpy, yEt coUld nEver dO withOut...
i kNow iT's true... anD i aM biASed... i jusT thInk thEy aRe sO cliChe...
eSp whEn thEy enD oFf wiTh a mOTTo liKE... 'dOn't woRry, bE haPPy'...
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fiNally foUnd oUt a waY tO aDd a mTv tO mY bloG...
wiLL iT becoMe thIs?...
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whIle wE werE wAlkiNg thE boYs, i reAlised thAT thE sevEnth mOnth iS coMing iN twO dayS...
oNe yeaR aGo, i waS aT thE parK...whEre iT diDnt sEEm liKe ghoSts weRe a pRObabIlity...
twO yeaRs agO, i haD a soMeonE whO kNew, anD senT mE hOme evEry siNgle nIght...
i haTe thE sevEnth mOnth, i caN't reAd aLone aT mY voId deCk, caN't briNg mY doGs doWn aLone...caN't gO hoMe aLone...beCause iF therE' soMethiNg i aM afRaid oF, iT's gHosts...anD aLL thEse yeArs, whAt mY maId sAid tO mE whEn i waS liTtle stiLL rinGs iN mY heaD...shE sAid thAt ghOSts coMe oUt betWeen mIDnighT anD 1aM...anD i haVE alWays haD thiS feaR siNCe...
iT soUnds siLLy, evEn tO mYSelf...soUnds liKe whAt aN aDUlt teLl a kiD tO maKe heR obEY...
i wiSh i could belIeve thaT tHEre arE nO ghoSts...bUt whEn aN auNt oF aN eX haD a miscarriAge tHE dAY aFter i sAw a shAdoW cRawl iNto hEr rOOm...i jUst caN't bElievE iT...
soMetimEs, i wiSH i haD a soMeboDy...
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'has greg not been keeping in touch with you anymore? i'm sorry if he hasn't. he's doing great. not much new here though...just work work work. i will tell him to call or email you as soon as i see him again.'
hOw dO yOu repLy tO tHat?... i juSt feEl lIke hIding, anD cryIng...
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Wednesday, July 30, 2008 || 1:39:00 AM
fiRst thE feEt... tHen thE hanDs...
doN't i lOok preTty iN pInk?...
tHe thiNg abOut maNicureS anD pediCures iS thaT yOu waLk fuNny anD geT rendereD hanDicapPed aFterwaRds... aT leaSt foR thE nexT hOur oR sO... becausE yOu aRe sO afRaid oF ruIninG thE coLours...
i haD tO havE mY maNicurisT takE mY pHone, waLlet, atM carD anD evEn feEd mE mY honeY mIlk tEa wHile i aM aT iT...
bUt i lOve tHe flOwers, thEir coLours maKe mY finGers lOok haPPy... sO doEs tHe hoT pInk oN mY toeS... anD mY hanDs nO lOnger lOok lIke a faRmer's wiTh aLl thE deAd skIn aRound iT goNe... i feEl sO clEan nOw... yaYy!...
oH, aNd yOu reaLLy shOuld waTch baTmaN twiCe... =) doN't siT theRe anD pretEnd yOu geT thE piCture...
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Tuesday, July 29, 2008 || 2:35:00 PM
Nelson Moss: [throws his cell phone in a sink full of water] Marry me! [throws his watch] Nelson Moss: Marry me! Sarah.
tO heAr a pRoposal... tO aCcept a pRopoSal...
lIng sAId soMEthIng laSt nIght thAt mAde mE thiNk thE whOle nIght...she wAS reAding...thIS bOok caLled 'gOodbyE tO daTing'oR 'bE goNE witH daTinG' soMethIng lIke thaT...
whY dO pEople deVote thEir timE, eFfort, moNey, loVe oN thEir bOyfriEnd/girLfrienD?... pEople whO taKe yOur tiMe,eFfort, moNey anD loVe bUt wouLd sAy 'iT's cRazY, noW?', 'yoU doN't hAve a caReer.', 'wE doNt haVe mOneY.'...whEn yOu aSk thEm tO maRry yOu...
pUt iT thAt waY, iF yoU doN't lOve hIm/hEr enOugh tO spEnd thE reSt oF yOur liFe toGether, whY dO yoU haVe thE heaRt tO taKe sO mUch froM hiM/heR?...
sWeeT nOvemBer iS oNe oF thE firsT mOvieS wiTh a paRticulaR hEr, thE laSt mOvie i bOught foR a pArticulaR hiM...thE fiRst mOvie i rEmembered wiThoUt a haPPy enDing, a mOvie i lOve tO wAtCh aLL thE timE, maYbe beCause oF thE stOry,anD maYbe thE pEople i reMemBered aLong witH iT...
'aLL wE haD iS hOw yoU reMember mE, anD i nEed thAt mEmorY tO bE stRong anD beAutifuL...don't yoU sEe? iF i kNow thAT i'M remEmbered thAt waY, i caN faCe aNythiNG, anYthIng...nElsoN moSs, yoU aRe mY iMmortaLity...'
jOAnne's bUcket lISt 6) tO aCcept a pRopoSal
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thiS hurts whEn i aM baThiNg maN... wEnt bLading witHout thInkIng oF faLLing foR oNce siNCe naTionaL daY celEbratioNs weRe roUnd thE coRner anD i coUldn't riSk haVing iNjuriEs...muRphY's laW...
feLL, blaDe tO thE pOint i sAt anD waIt foR lIng...saT quIetly wiTh eaRpHoneS oN whEn thIs guY caMe oN a bicycLe anD stArteD tAlking tO mE, asKing mE iF i feLL...hE maDe a thOrouGh seArcH hIs baG foR firsT aiD whICh i suSpecT hE diDnt haVe iN thE firSt plaCe anD theN begAn shOWing mE sKEtcHEs oF tuRbos, engiNes, caRs...thAt guY don't eVen haVE tiSsue foR gOodneSs saKe...hE jUSt weNt oN aND oN tiL lIng caME anD resCue mE fROm hIM...
anD thEn hE crIed oUt 'nO craBs oR pRawns' whEn wE aRe 10m aWay...
nExt tHing yOu kNow, hE chAngeD anD wAS wAitinG bY thE caR whEN yOu geT baCk aFter thReE hOurs...thReE fuLL hOurs...iF iT wEre thE sEventh mOnth alReadY i woUld thInk hE's a ghOSt...anD hE contiNues, aDding cRitiCisms tO lIng's caR...sAying thE reVersE sEnsors aRe thE aLArms...
taiWaneSe draMa, tYpicaL sTArt oF aN uNforgEtaBle roMancE iSn't iT?...wRong!...hE's a driFter waNnabe whO braGs abOut thE carS hE owNed iN mAlaysiA iN broKen enGlisH...anD hE haD tO daMage thE braKes oN hiS biKe whEn aLL hE diD waS a lefT tuRn...
woUld iT kiLL tO giVe mE oNe cuTe guY?...oR jusT oNe whO caN spEak enGlisH?...
shAh saId i'M turnIng iNto miSs pOpulAr...i thiNk i aM miSs weirDos-taLK-tO-mE...firsT thE guY whO aSked mE direcTioNs, theN thIs stUpid bUGger, twO weiRdos iN thrEe mOnths...iS thaT a reCord oR whAt?...
lOokiNg oN thE briGht siDe, aT lAst i hAve aNotheR kInd oF paIn tO foCus oN foR thE timE beiNg...
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Monday, July 28, 2008 || 6:20:00 PM
whEn i knOck oFf laTer, i gOing tO dRop a leTter iN thE pOSt-bOx... mY 17tH leTter thIs suMmer... thE lEtter...
thAt teLls hiM thIngs aRe oVer iF i dOn't heAr fRom hiM bY 15tH noVember 2008...
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Sunday, July 27, 2008 || 10:53:00 PM
joAnne maDe aNother dIscoverY toNight...
shE reaLised shE haS soMe haBits whEn iT coMes tO haVing diNner aT a pUblic place...
shE caNnot leAve hEr beLongIngs aT heR sEat whEn shE leaVes iT tO plAce hEr oRder iF nO onE's theRe tO 'lOok aFter' tHem...shE's a paRAniod wHen iT coMes tO lOsing stUff...
anD shE hatEs carRyinG foOd oN a trAy tO heR tAble...sHe's alWays goT tHis sEcret feAr oF droPping heR fOod oN heR wAy bAck, eSpeciaLLy dRinkS, soUp oR hoTplatE...jusT liKe hOw shE's aFraid shE'll faLL oN stAge oR aT presEntatiOn while iN hEels...shE iS a sTaunct belIever iN muRphY's laW...iF shE haS a chOice shE muCh prefEr tO eaT froM a sTall soMeonE iS eaTing frOm anD haVe heR foOd hiTch a riDe...
neIther doEs shE like tO eaT wiTh heR baG sTiLL oN heR...noT sO muCh resTrictinG, buT shE thiNks iT maKes hEr lOok uPtiGht...whiCh shE is reaLLy (remEmber noT leAving heR baG whEn shE orDers), bUt shE diDnt thInk oThers shOuld neEd tO knOW...
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aFter fiNishinG my entrY i sTeppeD oUt foR luNch... anD tHought oF hOW bruCe wAyne (haNdsoME wAyne!!) doZed oFf aT hiS mEetinG anD bEing laTe foR woRK diDnt sEEm quIte thaT baD anymoRe...
i caN iMagiNE mYself a superherO wHo haS mIghty iMportanT stuFf tO dO iN thE nIght... yaY!...
'Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now...and so we'll hunt him, because he can take it. Because he's not a hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector...a dark knight. '
suCks beiNg lAte foR woRk...eSpeciaLLy whEn youR boSs aRriveS eArlier, anD yoU haVE a deputY spRoutinG nOnseNSe iN front oF hEr, saYing shE haS doNe thE neCessaRy whEn shE diDn't, baSicaLLy juSt sAbo-inG yoU tO thE maX...
bUt i doN't blaMe hEr...shE's proBably goT a f***** uP life anD she caN't heLp being nAsty...beSides shE's biTterlY oLdeR, aLmosT baRren aND goIng nOwheRe aT woRk aNd/oR liFe...i'D liKe tO thInk thaT shE's sAbo-inG mE bEcauSe i aM a tHreaT...
sO laTer whEn i geT oFf, i aM goIng tO bUy thE noISiesT aLArm clOck i caN fiNd...anD thOSe oF yOu whO haS iRritatiNg riNgtonEs whIch i caN uSe aS alArm tOne, pLEase sEnd thEm tO mE...maNy thaNks!...
=) ... shE'LL rePrimaND mE toMorroW anD iT woUld sUCk, bUT iT's mY duE...i reSolveD nOt tO leT heR caTch mE goIng tO woRk laTE aGAin...*wiNk*
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Kangaroos are the only large animals to use hopping as a means of locomotion. The comfortable hopping speed for Red Kangaroo is about 20–25 km/h (13–16 mph), but speeds of up to 70 km/h (44 mph) can be attained, over short distances, while it can sustain a speed of 40 km/h (25 mph) for nearly two kilometres.[15] This fast and energy-efficient method of travel has evolved because of the need to regularly cover large distances in search of food and water, rather than the need to escape predators.
Because of its long feet, it cannot walk correctly. To move at slow speeds, it uses its tail to form a tripod with its two forelimbs. It then raises its hind feet forward, in a form of locomotion called "crawl-walking."[15]
tHerE yOu gO...kanGeroOs caN't wAlk...aT leaSt nOT coRrectly...anD ceRtainLy noT baCkwarDs...
i'vE goT mAil...
Saturday, July 26, 2008 || 2:18:00 PM
anD i'vE goT maIL...
Lets try this again n
HELLO jOANNE
yES wHAT AM I AN IDIOT? i dONT THINK SOO. wELL LET's see... yeS I LIKED YOUR GIFTS THOUGH I HAVen't ate the "gravy" yet. Red the book kinda depressing. Made me think of mom, so i called her. SHE'S DOING WELL.My birthday was good ..got drunk an high roamed around old faithful ya know not a bad night. The fourth was nice Went to Cody their display was lame but i hung out with some friends. Well work at old faithful is busy. The 300 for breakfast and 100 for lunch are 450 for breakfast and 600 for lunch. The menu is simple and i of course command respect so things are going smoothly. Off time has been kinda slow. D&D with a group on thursday's losts of town time and only one car camp,but the season is wet and buggy. Saww some movies . that's about my summer so far without all the dirty little details. I know it's just an excuse but the net in the park is terrible. I;m in Bozeangles now. Love you keep sending Curtis C.
thEre yOu gO... thE nEtwoRk iS baD...
i loVe thE waY theY wriTe, thE worDs thEy stRing toGetheR lIke whaT yOu rEad iN a stOry boOk oR heaR iN a moVie...anD i loVe thE faCt i havE a reAl peRson wRitinG tO mE thAt kInda thiNG...
i oNly teaR becAuse cuRtis haS maDe aN efFort, anD noT hiM...
'What will **** say today I wonder. I turn on my computer. I wait impatiently as it connects. I go online, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You've got mail. I hear nothing. Not even a sound on the streets of New York, just the beating of my own heart. I have mail. From you.'
noT.
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i liKe hoW kAthlEeN anD frAnk broKe uP...thE matUrity oF leTTing soMeone yoU donT loVe gO, thE matUrity oF aCcepting thAt...
i lovE thE iDea oF meEting thE loVe oF yoUr liFe oN a virtUal woRld, eXcept yoU uSuaLLy geT peOple wiTh a reAl trOuble oF eXpresSing thEmselVes iN thE reaL woRld...i loVe thE waY joE emBarks oN a 'prOjecT' tO mAke heR faLL iN loVe firsT, thE waY hE sAid 'Hey, how about... oh, how about some coffee, or drinks, or dinner, or a movie... for as long as we both shall live?'...anD oF couRse thaT bLinkLey wAs tuGging aT jOe's coAt waS jUSt iCing tO thE aLreaDy woNDerfuL cakE...
anD iT makes mE waNna wAtch 'goDfather' anD reRead pRide anD prejUdice...
'I like Patricia. I *love* Patricia. Patricia makes COFFEE nervous.' - jOe fOx
'The odd thing about this form of communication is that you're more likely to talk about nothing than something. But I just want to say that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many somethings. '
'but there's the dream of someone else. ' -kAthlEen kElly
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shAt twiCe iN twO daYs... eiTher thaT 50 laPs iS iNcreAsing mY meTaboliSm ratE oR i juSt haVE toO muCH sHit iN mE, oR ratHer throWn iN mY face, iF i caN saY sO...
anYway, aS i wAs shIttinG, i thoughT oF wHAt i waNted tO wriTe...sO heRE goeS...
jOannE iS a saGittaRius, a hOroscOpe thaT sYbolisEs freEdom mORe thaN aNythiNg, anD shE's nEver mORe pRoud oF heR oWn hOroscoPe...shE woUldnt waNt tO bE anY oTher siGn...shE loVes thE syMbol, thE cHaracteristICs, thE mOntH, aNd everytHing abOut hEr hOroscoPE...
bUt shE diGreSs, wHat shE wantEd tO saY iS, shE's a trUe blUe saGi anD shE haTes rulEs...shE hatE bEing toLD whAt tO dO aND whEn tO dO wHAt...anD thAt iNcluDes bEing denIEd...
toNight jOanne wAS deNied reADing a liTTle bLAck nOtebOok,a sCript, a dRafT oF a grEat thInker, a deEp maN, and soMEone shE alWays aDmired, reSpecteD anD woNdered aBout...shE wAnts tO reAd thaT bOok, eSp thE paGe hE saID thAt haS tO bE ouT beFore sHe caN reaD iT...jOAnne liKes tO siT doWn anD thiNk, anD theN dO sOmethinG abouT whAt shE thOught oF...aNd diSlike thE facT shE caN oNly woNDer anD gueSs, stUck aT nOt beIng abLe tO find oUt...shE's alSo aFraiD oNe daY, thaT noTebooK wiLL geT thrOwn aWay oR lOst anD sHe'LL nEver reaD iT...
shE reSpectS thE neEd foR prIvacY bUt caN't hElp thInking iT's beCause hE doNt tRust hEr...bE iT trUSt foR hEr reActioN oR trUSt thaT shE caN keEp a sEcreT...eiTher thaT, oR iT's soMEthinG abOut heR...anD boTh wAYs, iT oNly aRouSes hEr cuRiousitY...a thIng shE ofTEns lEts iT kiLLs hEr iF shE haVE tO, tO saTisfY iT...
sO shE's doIng thiS...
jOannE's bUcket lISt 5. tO reAd a liTtle bLack nOtebOok.
whIle thE loVe oF heR hOroscoPE, pRaiSes anD aDditioN tO heR bUcket liSt iS trUe, shE aDmits iT's maNipulativE tOo...shE jUSt wAnt hIm nOt tO thrOw iT aWay beFore shE geTs tO sEe iT...shE waNts tO reAd iT, hOpefuLLy sOon, thOugh shE doUbts iT...
pOint madE...anD shE moVes oN...
jOannE haS bEen iMaginIng thiS...thaT thE waY shE getS oFf a bUs, oR lOok aT heR sCreEn, oR siTs aT a cafE reAding alOne maY woW soMEone...naRs aT heaRt shE knOws...buT liKE whAt shE wroTe aFter shE reAd aLone aT thE laKE...thEre arE timEs sHe hOpe foR a pErson tO sEe whAt shE's woRth, hoPe foR soMeonE whO wiLL wAnt tO giVe heR evErythiNg, anD teLL heR thAt shE woUldn't nEed tO crY aNymoRe beCausE shE's foUnd...
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Friday, July 25, 2008 || 2:14:00 PM
Good morning, sunshine!
How's the world over at your end? =)
hE waS thE onlY oNe whO evEr caLled mE suNshine... doEsn't iT soUnd lIke soMethinG hE woUld sAy tO mE?... bUt nO, iT's nOt hiM...iT's thE toiLet maTe...
doN't geT mE wRong, iT's nOt thaT i dOn't aPpreciAte yoU aSking hOw mY daY wenT... iT's jUSt tHe woRd suNshine, tAKes thE aiR oUt oF mY lUngs, sQueeZes mY heaRt anD maKE mY stomaCh gO iN kNots...aLL aT oNce...
i guEss, i juSt...miSs hiM...
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Thursday, July 24, 2008 || 11:44:00 PM
thE suDden reLuntaNce tO swiM... reSultinG iN a nOn-sTop sWiMathoN... thE achIng shOulders... goIng aUtopilOt... thE juMp aT sOmeoNE spLAshinG iN... anD thEn thE couRAge tO swIm bEtweEn twO aPpRoaching maLEs... tHe diSgustinG coUple aT thE pOol's laDder... a chIneSe anD euRasiaN thougH... tHe 50 lAps iN 1 1/2hOurs... thAt stiLL diDn't gEt mE tO yoU...
hAve yoU evEr sWam iN thE rAin iN thE niGht?... sEen thE riPPles maDe oN thE suRface froM beneAth?... hEar thE pittY paTty soUnd iT maKes oN toP whEn yOu aRe uNDer?... sEen thE shAdows oN thE flOor oF thE pOOl?... anD eAch rAindroP iN frOnt oF thE briGht pOol liGhts?... fEEl thE coLd wiNd whEn yoU caMe uP foR breAth?... anD wArm whEn yoU gO baCk bElow, liKe thE wAters maKe a bIg coZy bLanket?...
i diD, thRee tiMEs toNight...
thAt pIttY paTty soUnd iS a soUnd frOm chIldhOod, whEn i swIm thRee timeS weEkly...a tiME whEn i dO laPs sO i coUld pLay...plAy pretEnd thAt i aM soMe sWordslaDy wiTh thE poWer tO taP aCroSs wAters...oR soMe waTer baLlet eXpert...
whIle sWimmIng nEver faIl tO chEer mE uP, thaT soUnd wAs mOre thaN a plEasanT suRprisE... anD i caN't hElp bUt thINk, soMEboDy, soMewhEre, wAnts mE tO bE haPpy...
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thE veRy fiRSt coNvoCatiOn iN thE faMilY...
thE grAduatE!... thE pOOr bOyfriEnd... i juSt loVe thEse shOts... oUCh oUCh... anD thE nExt tIme, iT'll bE a weDDing veiL... anD shE's doNE... mY gRaduatE siSter... wiTh heR loVe... evEryone waNts a piCture!... gRaduatIon bEar maScoT... mUmmY anD dAddY... tHe mAscot caN bE gwEn!... hEr verY owN graDuatiOn beAr bEar!... alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5226593973073317042" /> aLthogethEr, taKen bY chriStine's onLy friEnd iN thE auDi... i lOok likE shIt bUt iT's okI caUse iT's hEr daY... wiTh mUmmY... wiTh dAddY... foUrth auNt... 60 bUcks gRad bEar... i waNt oNe tOO!
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she hate waiting for the phone to ring. it wasnt like her to be this way; the experience a new one. In college her roommate sometimes refused to go out in the evenings because she thought her boyfriend might call. Denise always did her best to convince her roommate to come with her, usually to no avail, and then would head out to meet different friends. When she explained why her roommate wasnt with them, each of them would swore up and down that they'd never do something like that. but here she was, and suddenly it didnt seem so easy to follow her own advice. Not that she stopped living her life, as her roommate had done.She had too many responsibilities for that. But it didnt stop her from racing to the phone everytime it rang and feeling disappointed when it wasnt Taylor. The whole thing made her feel helpless, a sensation she detested. She wasnt, nor had she ever been, the helpless type, and she refused to become that now.
Analysis, debate, dissection...she hated reducing their relationship to that. It seemed so eighties, so grounded in psychobabble, a bunch of words and actions that might or might not mean anything. No, scratch that. They did mean something, and that's exactly what the problem was. Yet, deep down, she realised tht Taylor wasnt lying when he said he cared about her. If there was one thing that kept her going, that was it. But.... So many buts these days.
oN thE 13tH jUne 2008, tHe stRAits tiMEs rePorted thE tRuth abOut thE iNcreASing liFe eXpeCtancY oF sIngapOreanS...
stUdies have shOwn thaT thE aVErage sIngaporeaN iS uNhealthY foR thE laSt deCade oF theiR liFe...whIle a siNgapore mAn haS a life eXpectanCy oF 78 yEars, hE haS a heaLthy lIfe eXpectanCy oF 69 yEArs...anD woMan?...a lIFe eXpectanCy oF 83 yeaRS aNd a hEalthY oNE oF 71 yEArs...
jOaNne's vIEws: i don't wANt tO lIVe lOnger, jUSt maKE thE shOrter yeaRs mORe fuLfillIng... aND nO waY aM i gOing tO haVE 12 uNhealThy yeaRS bEfore i kICk thE buCket...
cOming tO thaT, timE tO thINk aBout mY bUCket lISt... thE mORe pEOple caN't beLievE i waNt tO gO alOne tO a bACkpaCker's hOstel iN aUstralIA's faRmstaY pLAces, thE mORE i wAnt tO gO...
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|| 12:07:00 AM
OACian gAtheRing!...
eiGht oF uS...aT a thRee daYs' noTice... oNe oF uS goT hiTched!...baNquet neXt deCEmber...yaY! tHe paSt trIo... dECembEr baBies... tHE doLphiNS... tHe mArlinS... tHE bLue whAles... anD thE onLy stINgraY...
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Sunday, July 20, 2008 || 11:57:00 PM
a chRistmaSy beAr foR mY ceLL... foR i boUght a chRistmaS preSent...
stOp maKing mE relIve thE hUmiLIation oF thE paSt... i dOn't wAnt tO bE remInded oF hOw foOlisH, hOw 送上门 i muSt haD seEm aT thAt tiME... tO haVE enDured sO mUCh nOnseNSe, sO maNy liEs, tO haVE tHought yoU woUldnt dO aNy reaL thIng tO hURt mE anD tO bElieVE thaT yoU aRe a gOOd pErsoN nO maTter wHAt....
yoU gEt oUt oF mY lIFe nOW... stoP maKing iT mORe misErablE thAN iT alReadY iS... pleaSe...
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' If he thought of the Ashlyn he loved, he remembered the woman with the pale, sweaty face and straggly hair, sitting in a hospital bed holding his newborn son, while he held their newborn daughter.'
- Marshmallows for Breakfast by Dorothy Koomson
sOmoNe aCtuaLLy thOught thIs scEne beAutifuL tOO...iT's a sCene i wrOte tO thE amEricaN aPprenticE, oNe oF mY dayDreams aBout oUr futuRe...
maYbe noW, i'LL nevEr geT tO hOld aVel greGory stenrOos wiTh yOu wAtchinG oVer uS bY thE bEd... anD iNstead, oNe daY i miGht haVe a liTTle greGory anD yoU a liTtle jOanne anD whEn theY groW uP theY'LL mEet iN yElloWstoNe laKe...oUR verY laSt pRomisE fuLfiLLed...
iT caN stiLL bE verY bEautiFul i thInk... a suMmer loVE, a siLLy bUt soLemn pRomise, anD soMEone tO remEmber aLL youR liFe...
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Thursday, July 17, 2008 || 1:34:00 PM
i woKe uP wiTh a soRe baCk anD aCHing sHouldeRs... anD i aM thANkfuL thaT i haD thE enErgy tO eXErt mYSelf thE daY beFore...
i slIde thE wiNDow oPen tO takE iN laUndrY jSUt aS i aM goIng tO steP oUt foR woRK... anD i aM thaNkfUl foR thE smeLL oF raiN i loVe...
i reaChed doWnstaiRs wiTh raIn roAring oN anD nO umBRella(foR i nEver bring oNe)... aND i aM thanKfuL foR thE coOlneSs iT brIngs tO mY miNd...
i gOt tO thE bUS-stOp aND thE roAring raIn bEcamE a driZZle... anD i aM thaNkfuL foR thE chANce tO wAlk/plaY iN thE raIN beFore iT liGhten uP...
i goT oN thE bUS anD thiNk abOut hOW i haVen't heaRd froM hIm for oNE mOnth... aNd i aM thanKfuL thaT i mEt hiM, feLL iN loVe anD haD hIm foR a liTTle whIle thIS liFe...
tOday, i aM thANkfuL foR evErythiNg... thaNkfuL foR eaCh smIle i sEe, eaCh piEce oF woRK i caN dO, eAch thOught thAT caMe tO mY miND, anD eaCh mOment i aM aLive...
i aM thANkfuL foR thE gOod thIngs thaT haPpen... anD tHANkfuL tHat whEn baD things hAppen, i'd kNow, onLy beCause i haD betTEr tiMEs...
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Wednesday, July 16, 2008 || 9:36:00 PM
Stupid
1. lacking ordinary quickness and keenness of mind; dull. 2. characterized by or proceeding from mental dullness; foolish; senseless: a stupid question. 3. tediously dull, esp. due to lack of meaning or sense; inane; pointless: a stupid party. 4. annoying or irritating; troublesome: Turn off that stupid radio. 5. in a state of stupor; stupefied: stupid from fatigue.
Idiot
1. A foolish or stupid person. 2. Psychology. a person of the lowest order in a former classification of mental retardation, having a mental age of less than three years old and an intelligence quotient under 25.
aND sO whEn yoU sCold soMeonE 'sTupiD iDiot'...yoU aRe thE stuPid oNE tO rePEat aInt iT?... yA, i sColded soMeonE thaT laSt niGht...
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|| 10:48:00 AM
tHanks stEphen... goIng tO waTCh iT nOw...
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|| 2:02:00 AM
SIAEC gaThering aT absOlute heAven on thE 12tH...
stArted thE day witH thE 'gOOdest' siSter... i loVE pEpper luNch!... yY wiTh cUrry bEef... yH wIth pEpper saLmon... 70, pRinceP stReet... mUShroOm soUp... oUr pUreE verSion oF muShrOom sOup-maDe freShly bY pUReeinG pOrtobEllo mUShroOms, shitaKe muShrOOms... oVEn-roAsted yORkshirE pOrk raCk... oVEn-roAsted yORkshirE pOrk raCk seRved wiTh hErb nEw pOtato, vEgetabLEs raTatouiLLe, driZZled wiTh cOffEe chOcolate saUCe, anD toPpEd witH fresH mEscluN salAd... ribeyE stEak wiTh port wiNe sAuce... riBeyE sTEak griLLed tO yoUr liKing wiTH poRt wiNE saUce, sErved witH pOtato graTin anD suGAr pEas... pEsto-cruSted coD... paN-sEAred coDfisH wiTh a laYEr oF pEsto crUSt, sErved witH freSh aSparaguS, maNgo sAlsa anD toPped wiTh mEsclUn sALad... chIcken roUlade... baCon spinacH roLled iN sLice oF chICken thIgh, sErved witH chAmpagnE creaM saUce and aVocadO saLad... tiRa mI sU... a clAssiC iTaliaN deSsert servEd wiTH eSpreSso coFfee anD liQueur iN liGht maScaRponE chEese moUSse... crEpes haVen... freNCh crePes sAuteEd in wiLd berRy saUce accOmpanIEdd witH a scOop oF vaNiLLa icE-creAm... viCtoriaN creME bRule... vaNilla graND naRnier wiTh roSe extrAct, deCorated witH roSe pEtals... chEf's sPEciaL deSsert... chocolaTe sPonge caKE, wiTh triPle chOcolate icE creaM... thE gUys...pEter, beRnard anD frAnciS... thE giRls...raChel,joAnne.W,jOAnne.N anD chRistinE...
i loVE thE dEsseRts...thE tiRa mI sU anD chEf's spEciaL... thEy diD thE fiRe thIngy wiTh thE crePEs tOo aFter thEY poURed liQueur oN iT whICh lOoks faB... oOoh, i haD thE steaK aND iT waS goOd...sO waS thE coD thaT mS jOaNne.N haD shE saID...
quIEt waIters, sWeet laDy boSs, cOzy liTTle plaCe...
i loVE placEs likE pRincep, sErangOOn gaRden, hoLLand V aND clUb streEt i reaLise...fuLL oF unIque lIttLe reStauranTs, staLLs, naIl anD maSSage paRlours...shophoUSes, lIghted nIghtS anD haPPy pEople...
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